I’m trying to remind myself right now that it is my motherly duty in life to clean up the kitchen and then
pick up the toys. It sounds so chauvinistic, but looking at the big picture: I’m in my early thirties, my babies
are still babies, I’m young, have my health and a great family. I shouldn’t be greedy and think: wouldn’t it be
awesome to throw on my coat, grab a pack of stogies and head on over to the nearest bar for a drink,
maybe scout out some hotties. NO! No! No! That’s what my twenties were for, but rather, my teenage
years since I met my hubby at 19. I’m a rusher. So I wanted kids fast. I mean we lived together for five
years before we even got engaged, but even then, I was screaming to get pregnant. So here I am, 32 years
old…ok…35. Two boys (screaming boys, today). One has a cold and the other is on antibiotics, which
makes for a beast. The weekend has been relaxing and nice. Hubby is on the couch watching football and
I’ve been searching the Internet for literary agents and now releasing my thoughts.
I had an agent call me months ago. He was interested in my novel, however I had no proof that he was legit. I couldn’t find anything about him on the internet and his web site was extremely vague and shady looking. So when my husband Jake said, “I bet he’ll call you from a private number.” I had my guard up, big time. And so, the next day, he called…from a private number. I was prepared and in bitch mode. I interrogated the man. Where are you from? Who have you published? Why aren’t you on the internet? Why are you calling and asking me what I would like to see happen with my book? Well, isn’t it obvious jack off I want it published legitimately. I didn’t say it in those words of course, but my no bullshit tone was obvious.
Everything happens for a reason. That’s what I’ll just keep telling myself. In the meantime, take care of your boys, work your part time job and keep trying as long as you have the stamina for it. That’s what I’ll tell myself. Good things come to those who wait, right? Don’t’ be greedy and enjoy the good life you are living right now. But its human nature to want more. Isn’t that what keeps us going!